Imagine how much i enjoyed the weekend
watched many preachers teach, i grew almost ten feet tall, had a wonderful time in church apart from minor distractions.
i went home, got my hair done. My self esteem is soaring everyday, not just cos i look good ( i know i do) but cos i am beautiful inside and out
so i get to the office and our administrator says some nasty things that have particular targets and he is just mocking and mocking and i nearly lose control.
i said 'mocker' under my breathe then i hold myself.
this self control thing is not as easy as i would like it to be.
i was feeling hurt looking around and gathering my my tornadoes to destroy the people trying to decapacitate me. then i remember that he says that vengeance is his and that i am to love em'
i am trying this love stuff for the last 2 weeks or so. so i say under my breathe that i love them. the words sound like ashes in my mouth but i make myself say them because i choose to align me with God's word.
like now, i keep saying his wounds have made me whole and he will perfect all that concerns me in jesus name, amen
when i received the shot(verbal), no one knows more than me how my face wanted to squeeze up and crumple in tears and just die and go to the grave, but something inside me says 'greater is he that lives in me than he that lives in the world"
I know who i am, i cannot be defeated because all things are working together for my good because i love God and i am the called according to his purpose.
N.B. To end this, let me just say thank you God for strengthening my backbone. only God knows that Wednesday last week, i wanted to give up on my christian walk. God knows ever since September i have been having challenges upon challenge but i have been overcoming by the spirit. My christian walk is all that sustains me and my r/ship with the H.spirit, as much as it has been like walking on cobwebs, it is the times he spoke to me that i received encouragement.
Let me say this direct to God. Lord, Friend, i saw those 'ivie's (two of em) wo obo when debai obo otion when. This is why i trusted you enough to move forward. I believe that you who began a good walk in me, you are faithful to complete it until the day of Christ.
I know who i am, i cannot be defeated because all things are working together for my good because i love God and i am the called according to his purpose.
N.B. To end this, let me just say thank you God for strengthening my backbone. only God knows that Wednesday last week, i wanted to give up on my christian walk. God knows ever since September i have been having challenges upon challenge but i have been overcoming by the spirit. My christian walk is all that sustains me and my r/ship with the H.spirit, as much as it has been like walking on cobwebs, it is the times he spoke to me that i received encouragement.
Let me say this direct to God. Lord, Friend, i saw those 'ivie's (two of em) wo obo when debai obo otion when. This is why i trusted you enough to move forward. I believe that you who began a good walk in me, you are faithful to complete it until the day of Christ.
