Peace!

Inside and out
Why

Cos
I am loving
and trusting Him
again

Tis enough


And guess what?
I'll never stop believing

The Holy Ghost is speaking
Being waiting for me

To come out
from the ordinary
from among the
rest of the world.

Peace!

I am on top
I can do anything
achieve anything

I love you Jesus

Finding Him again

I have been away from Him for ages
Close but not close enough!

I am in God's hands again and it is just me. Learning the benefits of walking in love, gentleness, kindness, patience, long suffering...

All i need to do is ask who i want to please...

Not like i did not try the other times, its just that i was not depending on His grace, i wanted to do it because i knew how.

I forgot that Jesus loved me.

Not in my memory but in my heart. In my memory, i believed He loved me but by my actions or inactions i still depend on self.

I fear i am not deep enough that i could take myself out of His grace again.

All i ask Lord is that you hold onto me tight. I am holding unto you with all my might, help me not let go. I love you and i know that if anyone can bring me out in one piece, it is you.

This is the promise i hold unto, "Who himself bore our infirmities on the tree that we being dead to sin should live unto righteousness, by whose stripes we were healed"

This is my fav saying, I am not 'the sick' trying to be healed, i am not the poor trying to be rich, i am not the disadvantaged trying to curry God's favor.

I am the perfection of His beauty, i am the one shining out of Zion, i am full of God's favor and depending on His grace. I am the whole, along with all my family, zoe is working in us big-time, the life of God is overflowing in us and more importantly we are yielded to the spirit of God everyday...

Shalom: nothing missing, nothing broken!

I love you Holy Spirit

Its august!

Its August and today me please i feel extraordinary, something different and when we prayed today, it was like fellowship, everyone pouring their hearts to God even many were hesitant. Its weird, i can perceive the feelings of people and sometimes i hear conversations that already happened, it just goes pop.

I see the pictures but it was freaking me out because i never knew what to do about it but i guess i am still in training sha. I just know i don't want to be a pastor, i don't mind edifying the body of which i am part.

Now it is so burdensome, before it was just something that came and i did not really care now i look out for it and its the pressure i can't stand. I just want to relax and be me.

I love God and i know God loves me and he's taking care of my family.

Lord help me know you more and please you more.

Drats i hate the pressure but i have decided to enjoy august and be in benin for my babe's wedding in sept and away for my birthday of course, no party!

Will definitely be thanking God for unimaginable favor...

God came through...

I came home the Monday after MYC to see my dad prostrate on the chair in my living room. I was terrified, the men with him said he had a mild stroke or something and they were terrified, they prayed fearful prayers and then left.

I just muttered that it was well and went upstairs, sent my sis to buy fast food for him at a nearby eatery and refused to think about it or be afraid. I was terrified to my bone, as much as my dad had not been good, i did not want him to die, he told me 'it is well' but i could see the fear in his eyes. I thought about my folks at work and i did not want them to terrify my dad because i knew he would be scared that his sins were catching up with him.

Many Christians don't know how to receive grace and they also don't know how to extend grace to others, i chose to give my dad grace.

After they were gone, i came downstairs, my mum was panicking and so i hushed her. I had been having nightmares but instead i creamed my dreams and held on to the word of God. I sat and listened to all my father said and then told him that the people he was afraid of had no power over him. I told him God loved him and that God had good thoughts towards him. I told him God could heal him and that any gift that was not from God he could reject.

I bought him two packs of lucozade boost, the bottle and the multivitamin pill, then i began to speak with him and minister the word of God to him. He began to pray in Jesus name. Any time my mom panicked, i would shush her and tell her not to declare anything that was not the word of God over him. I prayed with my younger sis, i prayed the word of God. That God would have mercy on him and carry out his sovereign will by restoring his strength. while my older sis fled the house to look for who would help her.

Eventually we carried him to the hospital where they gave him shots for high blood pressure, by Wednesday night, he was back home. maintaining my calm for those two days was the hardest thing i had ever done but i had to trust God and resist negative testimonies. (You know how christians are always quick to tell you testimonies of people who have died from stroke, i remained silent and listened to the word f God and played it at home). My dad came back home smiling, he thought he was in his death bed, instead i rememebered the pact i made with God that no matter how much the storm raged against my family that there would be no loss and this i held onto. then i held unto the word, 'shalom: nothing missing, nothing broken'.

At about 10.00pm i text-ed my younger sister and told her to pray in tongues that dad was in hospital, she called my elder sis and her hubby. I emptied my account the next day to pay for the hospital bill and sow battle seeds in my church and my younger sisters church. I did this because i could not pray and there is a scripture that says the man with money can ransom his life with his money. My first pastor said when you sow, you are sowing into the future and when i was in nysc, i learnt that money is a ransom that what can the poor man do? In 2008, i learnt that instead of holding money, you could release it to the prophet and get a God result, i never lose when i act on the word of God.

My father whose eyes were weak like he was ready to go came back from the hospital strong with his eyes strong and working about.

The hardest thing i had to do was hold on to God's word as i half carried my dad on one side, my mom on the other as we helped my dad to the car. I felt like his feet were already paralyzed but God turned it around. He himself knew that he had experienced a miracle. V my sister was so worried she couldn't sleep. I had to encourage my siblings that it was well and call my mom and encourage her with the word of God because she can so panick. Then sleep and wake up to go to atm, pay for the meals at home and get to work and act like everything was working together for good but i did it and i am so grateful God always answers.

I don't deserve the way he loves me and i don't want t deserve it, i just want to accept his goodness and know i am greatly loved by God and many folks.

My latest word: Kings shall come to my rising cos i am favoured and blessed, in all i do i shall prosper and everything i touch shall be blessed.

Yes i had opportunity to lay hands but i wasn't so led, instead i had an agreement prayer with my sis because i knew she had faith. So we agreed.

PS When you make an agreement prayer be sure that the person you are praying with is in agreement and believes in God and in His word. I am blessed to be surrounded by men and women of faith (Them that are close to me) because they rub off on me and it means i have built a circle of faith so i keep out unbelief.

Deliberate Growth...

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith,

gentleness, self-control.

My friend from secondary school sent me this lists of things that help growth:

1. Don't waste time fighting the wrong people

Ephes 6:12 focus on what God has told you to do and pray about everything cos your enemies are not the ones with flesh, your enemy is the principalities and powers that try to get you to lose focus.

(Don't get it twisted, the folks who annoy you and get you raging hot; hormones or adrenaline from anger are not the problem)

2. Don't play self defeating movies in your head.

2 Cor 10:3-5

Don't allow negative thoughts and words of people play over and over again in your head, cast them down by speaking the promise of God aloud.

(I used to do this, still do it from time to time, i can agonize over things and make them a big deal, now when i get tempted, i read my bible; its a weapon)

3. Don't listen to 'they'

Luke 23:34

Have this mantra, 'run to the throne not the phone'.

People can only temporarily relief your aches, God can make it all go away, i have to learn that sometimes your mouth can keep quiet about what is not conclusive and i can talk.

4. Don't stop planting seeds

Gen 1:11

Plant the seed of encouragement and don't be the only thing on your mind.

I never had the martyr mentality, i fought it, Jesus dying on the cross is enough, he 'done' paid for everything. My heart is a garden and God's word can grow if i can keep out the negative emotions and thought patterns; then i can believe God.

5. Don't connect with evil doers

Tis a roundabout way of saying 'build a circle of faith around you'. So any one that don't believe, in you or in your vision, get out of your line of vision, you don't hate them but their words won't encourage or build you.

6. Don't say it is not working

Rom 8:28

Don't move from what God promised, stay with it and be expectant.

You have to remember that some promises come quickly and others come later but they still come.

My days are miraculous!

I want to encourage you, no matter what anyone has said or thought or what your circumstances are telling you, you might be bed ridden or in a wheel chair or held down physically, emotionally or mentally.

Have you asked yourself this question "What has God said?"

His word can override any negative circumstance, this is because his word is ye and amen!

i found out:

That to activate the law of the spirit of life
you speak

speak the word of God

resist fear, anger, strife, jealousy and every negative emotion
be a new creation...

I love you lord
and i trust you to
get me through
this time.

Its been so long

My healing is still intact amidst many battles...

Lord i love you so much.

My latest scripture i am standing on is...

1 pet 2 :24 "...who his own self bore our sins in his own body on the tree, that we being dead unto sin should live unto righteousness by whose stripes ye were healed"

I vibrate endlessly day in day out and i know its the anointing of God's spirit, i don't know what to do and so i speak the word of God.

I used to vibrate then too, before the other healing, my feet used to vibrate endlessly.
I just am convinced that God loves me too much. He loves me and i am glad that he does. Holy Ghost help me to continuously fellowship with your spirit.

I am so loved of God it humbles me. My sis is back from the psychiatric home she stayed at for 5 months.
she no longer talks or laughs but guess what i don't believe in the drugs as much as the drugs may work.

My trust is in the word of God that says that "he himself bare our sins on his body on the tree that we being dead to sin should live unto righteousness, by whose stripes we were healed"

Thank you Jesus cos you love me.
I am vibrating again but guess what even when i am not vibrating, i choose to believe that my healing is still present because the gifts and the calling of God are without repentance.

i want to say i love you lord