My God is awe-amazing!

I have come a long way from March 2001 when I gave my life to Christ and
November 2007 when I started working in ministry

I have seen the hand of God
I have seen the goodness
I have caught a glimpse of how faithful He is
and how His love is all encompassing

He is a good God
He is kind
He is trustworthy

I have seen the obstacles
but always in the midst of the obstacles
I have seen what God can do if you let Him

I am a daughter of God
I am a seed of Abraham
I come from the line of the people who have favor with God

I have had the comfort of the Holy Ghost
I have the leading of the Holy Ghost
I have known the counsel of the Holy Ghost
Even though it has not always been easy obeying
Anytime i obeyed I have seen wonders
What men say is impossible, I have seen it become possible

Not because I am perfect
Just because of Jesus sacrifice
and His mercy
and His peace

I can't finish saying this in one day
BUT
I just want to say that I am thankful
That He chose to wrought His wonders through me
I am a walking miracle on earth
I shouldn't be alive
But mercy said NO.

#Thankful
#Forgiven
#Healed
#SetFree
#Delivered
#InTheLight
#InTheKingdomOfGod

Testimony: My dad gave his life to Christ two weeks ago and even though it hasn't been easy for him, I trust that God's hand is on him and that God is drawing him to Himself just the way He drew me.

#JesusIsLord

True Love...

I am in faith.

As soon as i got in faith
and i was in it risks and all.
I got a word

'Knitting and building
Bone upon bone flesh upon flesh...'

I took it a step further and i declared:

That the Holy Spirit was working with me building and knitting bone upon bone, flesh upon flesh
blood upon blood, organ upon organ, system upon system i began declaring and it was not a feeling but something sure inside of me...

I have been declaring, i am not even actively praying. All i do is as i walk about at home, hang out, play Live, i keep declaring what the word of God is saying.

I have been working on my hope, patience and love. Patience and love were stressing me but i have righted everything and i am now in the right position to receive from God.

Concerning my family, i just declare that we walk in divine health and in prosperity and in divine direction and divine connection. i just declare that our needs are met as they arise in Jesus name. Amen

Right at this moment, my relationship with God is the most important thing to me. I love you Jesus. I will never stop loving you, don't let me forget what it means to spend time with you, Lord!

Peace!

Inside and out
Why

Cos
I am loving
and trusting Him
again

Tis enough


And guess what?
I'll never stop believing

The Holy Ghost is speaking
Being waiting for me

To come out
from the ordinary
from among the
rest of the world.

Peace!

I am on top
I can do anything
achieve anything

I love you Jesus

Finding Him again

I have been away from Him for ages
Close but not close enough!

I am in God's hands again and it is just me. Learning the benefits of walking in love, gentleness, kindness, patience, long suffering...

All i need to do is ask who i want to please...

Not like i did not try the other times, its just that i was not depending on His grace, i wanted to do it because i knew how.

I forgot that Jesus loved me.

Not in my memory but in my heart. In my memory, i believed He loved me but by my actions or inactions i still depend on self.

I fear i am not deep enough that i could take myself out of His grace again.

All i ask Lord is that you hold onto me tight. I am holding unto you with all my might, help me not let go. I love you and i know that if anyone can bring me out in one piece, it is you.

This is the promise i hold unto, "Who himself bore our infirmities on the tree that we being dead to sin should live unto righteousness, by whose stripes we were healed"

This is my fav saying, I am not 'the sick' trying to be healed, i am not the poor trying to be rich, i am not the disadvantaged trying to curry God's favor.

I am the perfection of His beauty, i am the one shining out of Zion, i am full of God's favor and depending on His grace. I am the whole, along with all my family, zoe is working in us big-time, the life of God is overflowing in us and more importantly we are yielded to the spirit of God everyday...

Shalom: nothing missing, nothing broken!

I love you Holy Spirit

Its august!

Its August and today me please i feel extraordinary, something different and when we prayed today, it was like fellowship, everyone pouring their hearts to God even many were hesitant. Its weird, i can perceive the feelings of people and sometimes i hear conversations that already happened, it just goes pop.

I see the pictures but it was freaking me out because i never knew what to do about it but i guess i am still in training sha. I just know i don't want to be a pastor, i don't mind edifying the body of which i am part.

Now it is so burdensome, before it was just something that came and i did not really care now i look out for it and its the pressure i can't stand. I just want to relax and be me.

I love God and i know God loves me and he's taking care of my family.

Lord help me know you more and please you more.

Drats i hate the pressure but i have decided to enjoy august and be in benin for my babe's wedding in sept and away for my birthday of course, no party!

Will definitely be thanking God for unimaginable favor...

God came through...

I came home the Monday after MYC to see my dad prostrate on the chair in my living room. I was terrified, the men with him said he had a mild stroke or something and they were terrified, they prayed fearful prayers and then left.

I just muttered that it was well and went upstairs, sent my sis to buy fast food for him at a nearby eatery and refused to think about it or be afraid. I was terrified to my bone, as much as my dad had not been good, i did not want him to die, he told me 'it is well' but i could see the fear in his eyes. I thought about my folks at work and i did not want them to terrify my dad because i knew he would be scared that his sins were catching up with him.

Many Christians don't know how to receive grace and they also don't know how to extend grace to others, i chose to give my dad grace.

After they were gone, i came downstairs, my mum was panicking and so i hushed her. I had been having nightmares but instead i creamed my dreams and held on to the word of God. I sat and listened to all my father said and then told him that the people he was afraid of had no power over him. I told him God loved him and that God had good thoughts towards him. I told him God could heal him and that any gift that was not from God he could reject.

I bought him two packs of lucozade boost, the bottle and the multivitamin pill, then i began to speak with him and minister the word of God to him. He began to pray in Jesus name. Any time my mom panicked, i would shush her and tell her not to declare anything that was not the word of God over him. I prayed with my younger sis, i prayed the word of God. That God would have mercy on him and carry out his sovereign will by restoring his strength. while my older sis fled the house to look for who would help her.

Eventually we carried him to the hospital where they gave him shots for high blood pressure, by Wednesday night, he was back home. maintaining my calm for those two days was the hardest thing i had ever done but i had to trust God and resist negative testimonies. (You know how christians are always quick to tell you testimonies of people who have died from stroke, i remained silent and listened to the word f God and played it at home). My dad came back home smiling, he thought he was in his death bed, instead i rememebered the pact i made with God that no matter how much the storm raged against my family that there would be no loss and this i held onto. then i held unto the word, 'shalom: nothing missing, nothing broken'.

At about 10.00pm i text-ed my younger sister and told her to pray in tongues that dad was in hospital, she called my elder sis and her hubby. I emptied my account the next day to pay for the hospital bill and sow battle seeds in my church and my younger sisters church. I did this because i could not pray and there is a scripture that says the man with money can ransom his life with his money. My first pastor said when you sow, you are sowing into the future and when i was in nysc, i learnt that money is a ransom that what can the poor man do? In 2008, i learnt that instead of holding money, you could release it to the prophet and get a God result, i never lose when i act on the word of God.

My father whose eyes were weak like he was ready to go came back from the hospital strong with his eyes strong and working about.

The hardest thing i had to do was hold on to God's word as i half carried my dad on one side, my mom on the other as we helped my dad to the car. I felt like his feet were already paralyzed but God turned it around. He himself knew that he had experienced a miracle. V my sister was so worried she couldn't sleep. I had to encourage my siblings that it was well and call my mom and encourage her with the word of God because she can so panick. Then sleep and wake up to go to atm, pay for the meals at home and get to work and act like everything was working together for good but i did it and i am so grateful God always answers.

I don't deserve the way he loves me and i don't want t deserve it, i just want to accept his goodness and know i am greatly loved by God and many folks.

My latest word: Kings shall come to my rising cos i am favoured and blessed, in all i do i shall prosper and everything i touch shall be blessed.

Yes i had opportunity to lay hands but i wasn't so led, instead i had an agreement prayer with my sis because i knew she had faith. So we agreed.

PS When you make an agreement prayer be sure that the person you are praying with is in agreement and believes in God and in His word. I am blessed to be surrounded by men and women of faith (Them that are close to me) because they rub off on me and it means i have built a circle of faith so i keep out unbelief.

Deliberate Growth...

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith,

gentleness, self-control.

My friend from secondary school sent me this lists of things that help growth:

1. Don't waste time fighting the wrong people

Ephes 6:12 focus on what God has told you to do and pray about everything cos your enemies are not the ones with flesh, your enemy is the principalities and powers that try to get you to lose focus.

(Don't get it twisted, the folks who annoy you and get you raging hot; hormones or adrenaline from anger are not the problem)

2. Don't play self defeating movies in your head.

2 Cor 10:3-5

Don't allow negative thoughts and words of people play over and over again in your head, cast them down by speaking the promise of God aloud.

(I used to do this, still do it from time to time, i can agonize over things and make them a big deal, now when i get tempted, i read my bible; its a weapon)

3. Don't listen to 'they'

Luke 23:34

Have this mantra, 'run to the throne not the phone'.

People can only temporarily relief your aches, God can make it all go away, i have to learn that sometimes your mouth can keep quiet about what is not conclusive and i can talk.

4. Don't stop planting seeds

Gen 1:11

Plant the seed of encouragement and don't be the only thing on your mind.

I never had the martyr mentality, i fought it, Jesus dying on the cross is enough, he 'done' paid for everything. My heart is a garden and God's word can grow if i can keep out the negative emotions and thought patterns; then i can believe God.

5. Don't connect with evil doers

Tis a roundabout way of saying 'build a circle of faith around you'. So any one that don't believe, in you or in your vision, get out of your line of vision, you don't hate them but their words won't encourage or build you.

6. Don't say it is not working

Rom 8:28

Don't move from what God promised, stay with it and be expectant.

You have to remember that some promises come quickly and others come later but they still come.

My days are miraculous!

I want to encourage you, no matter what anyone has said or thought or what your circumstances are telling you, you might be bed ridden or in a wheel chair or held down physically, emotionally or mentally.

Have you asked yourself this question "What has God said?"

His word can override any negative circumstance, this is because his word is ye and amen!

i found out:

That to activate the law of the spirit of life
you speak

speak the word of God

resist fear, anger, strife, jealousy and every negative emotion
be a new creation...

I love you lord
and i trust you to
get me through
this time.

Its been so long

My healing is still intact amidst many battles...

Lord i love you so much.

My latest scripture i am standing on is...

1 pet 2 :24 "...who his own self bore our sins in his own body on the tree, that we being dead unto sin should live unto righteousness by whose stripes ye were healed"

I vibrate endlessly day in day out and i know its the anointing of God's spirit, i don't know what to do and so i speak the word of God.

I used to vibrate then too, before the other healing, my feet used to vibrate endlessly.
I just am convinced that God loves me too much. He loves me and i am glad that he does. Holy Ghost help me to continuously fellowship with your spirit.

I am so loved of God it humbles me. My sis is back from the psychiatric home she stayed at for 5 months.
she no longer talks or laughs but guess what i don't believe in the drugs as much as the drugs may work.

My trust is in the word of God that says that "he himself bare our sins on his body on the tree that we being dead to sin should live unto righteousness, by whose stripes we were healed"

Thank you Jesus cos you love me.
I am vibrating again but guess what even when i am not vibrating, i choose to believe that my healing is still present because the gifts and the calling of God are without repentance.

i want to say i love you lord

I have the life of God in me.

Guess what? I got healed of that vaginal discharge.

i was unsure
i was scared
i was convinced
my emotions were on a roller coaster

i went for easter meeting pretty confused
because every one was attacking me
from all angles
i was a hooker, a pro, a wicked gal
i could have broken then if they tried me

i was crying inside
but also holding on tightly to Jesus
inside me, i was strong, unlike me

But... i knew God spoke to me
i was giving like a crazy chic
everything i had
i was abandoned by everyone
or so my psyche told me

i closed my eyes and focused on God
and God showed himself strong on my behalf
i was still smelling
but God told me to stop padding
and so i stopped

and when people mocked me asking
if i had a testimony, i smiled serenely
and said yes that i would say
when i was ready

a month or two weeks later
i stopped smelling and then
all the tornado from the church leader
started coming telling me it would come back

i sat through many meetings scared
it would come back and i could feel
people sniffing around me
trying to make it smell
God stood by me and i remain

I smell oxygen now
wonderful oxygen
the air smells good
the flowers look brighter
Its wonderful to be alive

Guess what?
I know God has more testimonies
in store for me
The waves of favor
If i would only dare to believe.

I will dare to believe
Cause i know that God loves me
too much!

i lived....

"Tara come forth"

i had malaria and these were like the words that preserved me amidst the prayers of familya nd friends.

so i battled for my life against malaria fever and all the demons of hell who thought they had the right to take me. At first, i thought it was a joke and then i prayed sparingly. Guess what i had this sneaky feeling that someone was trying to take my right to life from me.

who can declare a thing when the Lord has not commanded it?

not that i remembered this scripture at the time. somehow i feel refreshed after this ailment had been sent back to the enemy, i do not want any gifts from him.

"My times are in God's hand".

My words are important and no one, i repeat no one is going drive me from this earth until i am satisfied.

i love you

so these past few weeks, i learnt about God and His presence that he is so big that he encompasses us all. He is everywhere all over the earth. He is present everywhere all over our body and within us and that we belong to Him

i love belonging to God cos it means that He fights my battles. I love being loved by Him. I remember when 'Angel felt she was so filled with shame and that she could not believe that she could be loved by Michael Hosea'

i totally identified with her, i was filled with shame partially cos i was already a Christian.

i am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus just was not enough for me. i kept trying to break down but God was holding by His word.

then he came to me during an all-night and whispered 'jehovah Mekoddishkem' in my ears and it took me a week to find out the meaning and it goes like this:

i am the one who sanctifies!

if God has sanctified me? even if a pastor accuses me, i still retain my confidence in God. I am the apple of God eye.

He says 'T' i love you with an everlasting love. and i am enclosed in His love, protected from my enemies who would hurt me by repeating a story over and over again that helps no one.

He has said tome: I will take away sickness (whatever form) from amongst you so i should to believe that no sickness on the earth shall have dominion over me or my family, even my day.

He has said to me: I know the grace of God that though He was rich, He became poor, that i through His poverty might be made rich. therefor i know that i am in a wealthy place and that i would lend to nations and not borrow.

i thank God for influence beyond what i have ever planned because His favor and His grace causes me to increase and to stand out amongst millions before Kings and not mean men.

He won my heart!

i love you lord.

i have been trusting God for something in particular since dec 2000. i have received in in faith and i thank God that He provided for something i did not even know i would require. God is that faithful.

God has integrity and i am so grateful to him for that. He died on the cross for me and he still proved His trustworthiness to me before i gave Him my soul and i do not plan to reconsider anything about my loving Him.

I choose to be like Shedrach, Meshack and Abednego and like Esther and trust God in spite of what my circumstances are telling me.

I speak to my circumstances and say 'all things are working together for my good because i love God and i am called according to His purpose.
I choose to believe his word that says that

He won my heart!

i love you lord.

i have been trusting God for something in particular since dec 2000. i have received in in faith and i thank God that He provided for something i did not even know i would require. God is that faithful.

God has integrity and i am so grateful to him for that. He died on the cross for me and he still proved His trust

He won my heart. My love

hey i found the meaning of Jehovah Mekoddishkem

it means the lord my sanctifier and i am the lord who sanctifies you.

it also means "come out from amongst them and be ye seperate

i just want to say that i have seen the hand of God and i have chosen to take the risk and trust God for divine health and prosperity and of course direction.

i need to trust someone and who better to trust than God.

gotta sign out...
The word of God is true

someone died of cancer recently nd i can only say that it is the grace of God that has kept me and my family

i have heard thoughts of others wondering why not my family, we have not had the most monies in recent times and it would be so easy to give up and become bad

...but not for the God who thought me important enough to go the cross for.
God thinks i am just too much. i am the apple of his eye and no boy, no man can ever
take that away from me

i am secure in his love. trusting! If you knew what it took me to trust God with my life and give him my heart, you will know i am a pretty difficult gal. what can i say? He won my heart.
i say mi corazon, my love, my lord, the keeper of my heart.
My all!
I love you beyond words, beyond this world
you are my destiny, my heart, nothing can seperate me from your love.

office brouhaha!

so my office environment is really crazy and i almost think all the hassle is not worth it.

i uploaded my fav bag to encourage moi. i really need a life. seriously think of launching out on my own. just need a steady source of income first. many streams of income rather. then i could still volunteer once a week or so or start charity work of some sort. i hate to do things i have already done in the past.

meanwhile i maintain the dream that some bloke will come out of the woods and buy me a house in site a and then deposit 10 million in my account. i hear my alter ego saying ole nea

part of me wants to believe it though cos i really need to get out of my parents home. i am over 21.

God makes all things beautiful in his time.

The earnest prayer of a righteous man has great power and wonderful results.

i had a vision of a light skinned male child, totally adorable. i don't understand my spiritual gifts properly so right now i don't know what it means but it must mean something good since it is from God.

i am fighting for my faith...

the best of me...

i am me
i get depressed sometimes
the only way i can come back up is by praying in the spirit
always struggle with joy this time of the year.
it helps to remember though
that i am saved by grace
and sustained by his sovereign will
nothing just happens...

moi

Mother Teresa (1910 - 1997)
Indian (Albanian-born) humanitarian & missionary
Adapted by moi for understanding and love.
God doesn't require us to succeed; he only requires that you try.
Mother Teresa

I grew up trying to be as good as mother Theresa, even wanting to be a nun, the whole works and this thought frees me. God requires that I try at least so that the fear of failure does not stop me from achieving great things.

I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love.
Mother Teresa

I am not sure I agree with her. I have never loved before except you are counting agape which is God’s love and I love God cos he first loved me. As for human relationships, I think I am a mess when it comes to actually relating on an intimate level with anyone who is not family or a friend for ages at least. I think I have a commitment-phobia about getting close to anybody not just male folk. God will work it out in His time (I hear now!) lol

I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish that He didn't trust me so much.
Mother Teresa

As for me, I am glad that God trusts me so much, why? Cos He wouldn’t speak to me if He did not trust me as a worthy daughter. If you can ask me the one thing I can value above my family, I would say my communication with God. Lately I had been having issues I could not put a name to and during a prayer all-night, he just dropped Jehovah Mekaddishkem in my spirit. I found out later that it means “I am the lord that sanctifies”. I was so thrilled within me; there is nothing that pleases me more than attention from God.

Joy is prayer - Joy is strength - Joy is love - Joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.
Mother Teresa

I have learnt joy not as others in smiles but in quietness and confidence. I have learnt to see joy in the clouds, the skies, my beauty; I always did not know I was beautiful. I had to learn to value myself. I learnt that I was fearfully and wonderfully made by God and now when people try to cut me down or hurt me, I know who I am.

Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless.
Mother Teresa

I have thought myself to always speak kind words, why? Cos I appreciate kind words a lot. Its always nice to hear healing and building words that can build you up, maybe not as much as the Holy Ghost will when you speak in tongues but it will definitely encourage you and encouragement is always a fun thing.

Let no one ever come to you without leaving better and happier.
Mother Teresa

I wish I can learn this. I am not usually one to smile when I meet someone for the first time. You would rather see a stoic if pretty face full of many thoughts. You could say I see you in passing but I am usually very polite. I could change this a little. I do this cos I am not one to trust so easily (been betrayed a couple of times) but you know that is not an excuse, I need to work at being more Christ-like and of course encourage others often by deliberately setting out to make their day.

Let us make one point, that we meet each other with a smile, when it is difficult to smile. Smile at each other, make time for each other in your family.
Mother Teresa, in her Nobel lecture

Like I said, I need to smile more often. Why? I want to emulate Mother Teresa cos she touched many lives growing up. I hope someday in heaven, all the lives I have touched knowingly or unknowingly will come up to me and say thank you for serving the lord. I personally think it’s a privilege and it makes life worth the living.

Lord, i love you!

i love you!

These words are simple. they are also true cos u have shared some of the scariest times of my life and some of the most glorious times. It is in some of theses times that i know the grace and the miraculous of God.

It is at one of these times that a certain ailment disappeared some my body about a day ago, today actually. I am so glad my heart is bursting out of its seams. so blogville you are already having testimonies and i will record some other past testimonies.
Like my deliverance from fear.

By his wounds was i healed (made whole)

Lord,
I am so glad that your words are spirit and life. The people that were scorning me are already wondering where the smell went. You Know what it was lord and i have nothing to hide from you; just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I love you
not cos of it.
but cos of salvation.
i wonder where i would have been today if i did not choose to follow you.
I am sorry about the times i neglected you
Those times were difficult cos i would not let you in
Lord,
Don't let me leave you
speak to me often and help me listen
prompt me to seek you often
I love you my savior
the lover of my soul
time spent in worship with you
is more than worth it
Holy spirit help build my character
Your love to me
is better than life.

Walk me through this stuff lord
Love you so much its like my heart is breaking
difference is i know you can be trusted

To my Love
God